August 29, 2010

In That Moment

Title: In That Moment
Rating: PG-13
Author: Sxymami0909
Fandom: Secret Life
Pairing: Ricky/Amy
Word Count: 665
Prompt: This is sort of a tag to ‘Sweet and Sour’

She thought coming home early would be a good idea. That maybe seeing each other again would help them figure out where they wanted to be. But as she stood at the door, John in her arms, uncertainty covering Ricky’s face, she just wasn’t sure anymore.



When he’d visited her in New York they’d discussed things, talked about trying a committed relationship with each other, but when he left no promises had been made. No declarations of love or vows to stay faithful.

So if Ricky had been with someone else it would hurt, but she could over look it because technically they weren’t together yet. She wanted to be with Ricky. They could start new from this point forward. He had been right about one thing though, with Ben around before they’d never really had a shot.

On top of that she’d been intent on keeping him out of her life because deep down Amy had always known she had feelings for Ricky, but she had been too afraid to admit it. Afraid he’d leave or hurt her and she hadn’t wanted to take that risk. She swallowed hard as he spoke.

“What happened? What are you doing here?”

Not exactly the reaction she’d been looking for. Maybe coming home had been a bad idea. Ricky studied the expression of happiness on her face. It’s not that he wasn’t happy that she was back…he was. It’s just that he wasn’t ready yet.

He cared about Amy more than he let on and he thinks that maybe Dr. Fields was right. Sleeping with different women, it was a way for him to feel loved. Ricky had always had a low opinion of himself, but when he got Amy pregnant and actually tried to man up her refusal of his help and everything involving him in general had hurt.

Ricky was pretty sure she had no idea how much it hurt, but now things were different. They’d aired out a lot of their dirty laundry and they could finally start fresh. That’s why he’d gone to see Dr. Fields. He wanted to be that guy for Amy.

He wanted her to hold him to his promises and get angry if he let her down because that would mean that she’d trusted him enough to believe in him in the first place and there was nothing he wanted more. But he was scared that he’d let her down.

Afraid that he wouldn’t be able to commit himself fully. So having her show up early while he was still trying to work on himself for her was unnerving. It threw him off seeing her standing in front of him wide eyed and willing to make this work. She swallowed hard.

“It was just a few more days...I thought it was more important to see you before anything happens. Anything that would keep us apart.”

He hesitated and watched as the hopeful look on her face faded. He took a deep breath and gave her a warm smile, not a smirk or a grin, but an honest smile.

“Welcome home Amy…we missed you.”

Ricky saw her face light up as he opened his arms and she moved towards him. He caught her, John slightly smushed between their bodies. He wiggled and Amy chuckled putting him down on the floor before standing and wrapping her arms around Ricky’s neck.

“Hey.”

“Hey.”

She raised an eyebrow and he smirked, leaned in, and captured her lips with his. He felt her body relax against him and that’s when it hit him. He could do this and if at any point he couldn’t be honest with her then he’d break it off.

He respected Amy too much to lie or cheat on her. When they broke apart he leaned his forehead against hers and sighed. In that moment as he stood there, Amy in his arms, John by his feet he realized they were a family and for once Ricky felt whole…and loved.

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