‘The Frutation of Unspeakable Love’
“There is sacredness in tears. They are not the mark of weakness, but of power. They speak more eloquently than ten thousand tongues. They are messengers of overwhelming grief...and unspeakable love.” –Washington Irving-
Tree Hill- 2006
Brooke took a deep breath as she walked up the steps to Lucas’ side door. This was it…this was the moment. She has been back from California for a while and all summer long, all she did was think about Lucas. Kissing her before she left at the end of school last year threw her off her game.
And when she came back to Tree Hill and he gave her that whole ‘I’m the guy for you’ speech, her heart melted, but she still couldn’t let herself get invested. Not after how he broke her heart the first time around. She was so afraid that he would hurt her again that she let her inability to trust ruin what she could have had with him.
Sleeping with Chris Keller was the biggest mistake she could have ever made, but she was upset that Brooke was with Rachel and she was lonely and drunk. It doesn’t matter though. All of those excuses weren’t enough. Lucas hated her. Brooke swallowed hard as she stood outside his door.
Haley said that if she wanted Lucas’ forgiveness, that she should be honest with him. Show him that her emotions were as strong as his so that’s what Brooke came to do. Earlier when they fought, cracked her already fragile heart and she was hoping that even if this didn’t get them together it would at least restore their friendship.
Brooke reached out and knocked on the door. Lucas was tossing things around in his closet when he heard the knock. He sighed, got up and walked over to the door. He pulled open the door and Brooke was standing there again holding a shoe box. She just doesn’t give up, thought Lucas and a part of him was glad about that.
As angry as Lucas was, he just wasn’t ready to give up on her yet either. He’d been pretty harsh the past day or so, but after talking with Haley his anger was lessening. Everyone makes mistakes…I made a huge one and she forgave me, thought Lucas. He opened the door slightly wider and she walked just inside the door.
Before he could say anything she spoke.
“There are eighty-two letters in here… and they’re all addressed to you.”
Brooke held out the box and Lucas took it and frowned at her. She shrugged and he could see the tears building in her eyes.
“I wrote them all this summer…”
Her voice broke as she continued talking and his heart melted. Lucas hated to see Brooke cry.
“One a day, but… I never sent them because I was afraid…”
Lucas turned his eyes away from her and onto the box in his hands. He had no clue what to say, or what to do.
She cut him off.
“I was afraid of getting my heart broken again…”
He watched a few tears coursed down her cheeks.
“Like before…Cause you hurt me so bad and…I was afraid to be vulnerable and I was afraid of you and the way that you make me feel…”
She finally met his eyes and Lucas swallowed hard as he watched her.
“And I know that doesn’t matter now, after what I did… but I just thought that you should know.”
Lucas watched as she looked down as more tears came. She sniffled and faced him again, eyes and nose red as she cried. Her voice was broken and barely a whisper as she spoke.
“This is how I spent my summer, Luke;…wanting you. I was just too scared to admit it.”
She bit her lip and she could see the tears in his eyes. She shrugged with one shoulder and let out a chocked sob before turning around and walking away. She practically ran down his steps outside as he watched her go. Lucas was frozen in time for a moment before he dumped the box of letters on his bed and ran after her. He called out to her.
She stopped and slowly turned to face him still crying. Lucas just looked at her and was overwhelmed with love. He’d been so stupid these past few days trying to hurt Brooke because she hurt him. He was done with that. It was time for him to stop being angry. Yeah, she slept with Chris, but they weren’t together. This is an opportunity…their moment to start over.
He paused and she gave him a stunned look. He moved closer to her and continued speaking.
“What you did with Chris;…it’s okay.”
She wrapped her arms around herself and shook her head.
“It’s not. It can’t be. It’s too much to forgive!”
Lucas’s brows were furrowed and the tears in his eyes were more prominent than before. His face was creased with emotion as he titled is head to the side and spoke.
“Well that’s too bad, because I forgive you.”
Brooke’s lip quivered slightly, but her eyes were hopeful.
“I just did…”
His grin widened as he reached out to her.
“So you’re gonna just have to deal with it.”
Brooke squeezed her eyes shut as she continued to cry, but this time out of relief. She felt Lucas’ hand caress her cheek and she opened her eyes slowly. Their eyes met and she could see the love flowing in them. His voice was gentle as he titled his head towards her.
“I’m the guy for you, Brooke Davis… and I know I hurt you last time we were together but..”
She cut him off.
“I love you.”
Brooke let out a mixture between a laugh and a sob. She could see the startled look on Lucas’ face before he grinned at her and brushed a piece of hair behind her ear.
“I love you too….Pretty girl.”
Brooke stepped forward and Lucas leaned down and captured her lips. She wrapped her arms around his neck as his wrapped around her waist. This is it, this is our moment. It will work this time…I know it will, thought Brooke.
Lucas couldn’t remember being happier than he was right now and he knew as long as Brooke was with him, he’d continue to be happy. Because he was her Broody and she was his Pretty Girl.